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Saturday, April 12, 2008 - i need time ... :

well im postin again ... realli sryy 4 makin so many ppl worry abt mi after they read the previous post.. lyk im sry i realli jux wasn mi... i was realli tinkin too much lar... thnks 2 sum1 4 makin mi feel much better k...lyk im realli tryin to force miself to be happy le ... its jus tt i cant seemm to be so happy now ... at least mayb ltr ... im kinda feelin ok le... not so suicidal or anythin le... dun intend to cut miself too ... im juz ok ... not too sad not too happy ... juz ok ... i tink i will be ok soon ... lyk i noe its been quite a while... and soo not lyk mi to be unhappy 4 quite a while... but i tink i will be ok lar.. jus tt yar... i wan ur to stop worryin so much le ... cuz the more ur worry the more confused i get and i makes mi feel worse... im sry if u dun realli understand but yar.. tts jus how i feel rite now.. im realli confused ... beyond anythin u can imagine..

ong ... i realli noe how u feel lar.. im realli tryin to be happy le and move on ... but i cant ...i realli realli cant... nt now ... i need time ... i realli dun mind if u dun even tok to mi ... juz giv mi time to be ok ... i realli am freakin confused abt everythin le ... i juz nid time ......

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Friday, April 11, 2008 - this is a realli emo post... :

lyk if ur a fwen and ur readin this post... its goin to be realli emo and different from the me u noe... if u feel uncomfortable stop readin this now ... im not jokin...
im seriously throwin mi life away ... realli dunnno wad to believe or do anymore ... everythin jus freakin f**ked up ... i dunno wad goin on anymore ... hu the hell can i trust le lor... lyk eveywher i go there is always bitchin and gossipin lor.. lyk y cant ppl juz tell each other in the face... y muz they fake fwens n act as if everythin is alrite.. can ur jux stop fakin!... lyk why cant ur jux say it to each others face... if ur realli so unhappy abt it ... juz say it out... lyk why the hell mux u keep it to ur self... realli dunnno why we keep lyin to each other ...
everythin is crumblin ... jus lyk a cookie... life is jux breakin apart and i cant seemt o do anythin abt it le... i nid to tell sum1 sumthin realli important... it will realli affect mi and tt person alot ... noe tt if anythin happens i tink i will realli be damn depressed and lyk realli hope tt everythin will go bak to be the same or mayb even better than b4....realli jus wanna b happy wif mi life.. try to cover up all mi probs wif tt smile on mi face but i cant anymore .. its too painful to bear le ... i nid to say it all out... i cant keep it to mi all the time ...
4 those hu hav read until here.. this post is realli a diff side of me ... dun ask mi y im so emo ... but i am ... and its juz part of mi ... and i tink i willbe ok soon ... those hu are worryin ... dont....

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